Fight-oh!

Penah rasa macam plastik beg?
Hahaha.. Penah2.. Bila makan banyak pastu sumbat suma.. Ngee.. Tu lirik Fireworks - Katy Perry. Saya suka. First time dengar lagu ni, dah suka sangat. Here's the lyric.

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag,
Drifting through the wind
Wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel,
feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards,
One blow from caving in?
Do you ever feel already buried deep?
6 feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite, the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July
'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
You're gonna leave 'em falling down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe your reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You're gonna leave 'em falling down-own-own
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through-ough-ough



Cute.. Inspired. Lately ni saya dikelilingi orang. Tapi terasa sangat lonely. Orang gelak ketawa kat keliling saya. Saya pon gelak ketawa. Tapi terasa sangat kosong. Masalah datang bertimpa-timpa. Sampai tak boleh menangis. Serius. Sangat sakit bila tak boleh menangis tak boleh mengadu kat sapa-sapa. Nak mengadu kat Totoro pon, kami sama-sama mengadap macam-macam rintangan. Saya pon tak nak bebankan dia. Ribut taufan dia pon bleh bertiup kencang kalu tak kena gaya. Saya amik pilihan untuk diam saja. Kat sekolah pon, rasa macam tak nak bercakap. Lebih suka mendengar. Kat sekolah pon lainlah pula masalah kan. Tapi sebab sokongan di pihak saya, saya lega sedikit. Tengoklah lepas SPM ni macam mana. Nak mengadu kat adik pon, taknak bebankan dia. Tapi dua hari lepas terkeluar gak kat dia. Meleleh gak air mata.

Tak taulah dari mana ada daya kekuatan untuk lawan semua tu. Semua kat keliling saya macam dah tak mampu bagi kekuatan. Cuma diri sendiri je skang. Wat kering je. Ada gak yang tegur, muka bakal pengantin sedih je. Hahah. Saya tak pandai sembunyi emosi saya. Tapi saya mampu hadap suma tu. Saya dah tak boleh bergantung dengan orang lain untuk hadap suma benda.

Bak kata Zamani Slam.. Mendung tak berterusan. Mentari muncul lagi.
Katy Perry pon cakap.. There's a rainbow after hurricane..

Semalam, airmata mengalir tak berhenti. Sampai hari ni. Saya tau, Allah dah tentukan jalan hidup saya macam ni. Allah tau apa yang terbaik untuk saya. Dan Allah tau macam mana saya akan betulkan hidup saya yang tersasar. Alhamdulillah. Saya tak akan sia-sia peluang ni.. Saya cuba.. Untuk mak abah, untuk Totoro.. :')